Ashley Morris: the blog

How would Ash say that

"Hana... His voice was what so many didn't know how to express. The power of his voice is still here and amazingly pertinent and inside each and every one of us in the city. Seeing it portrayed on screen is one of many such proofs."
by Rex

This is exactly it - I was watching the show last night (did NOT cry, I have to say proudly) and this is what was wrong:
even though John Goodman is is an excellent actor and the body type added to the whole Ashley-like thing, he was not INTENSE enough.
I know that when Ash was saying this his head looked like it was gonna explode. His voice got an octave higher, he spoke faster, he shook his head....
John Goodman was good but he did not look crazy and that's the difference. There were many people who would not argue with Ash simply because they were scared, because he look like he was gonna loose it.

Otherwise - I really, really liked the show. Even though a friend of mine, watching it, said that people outside of NOLA will not get it. Honestly, A) I don't really care if they do and B) this is possibly the best way to show them what was happening in people's mind. Not the floaters and the mold. The darkness of desperation and the incredible will and strength to live, rebuild, return thing to what they were. 

Treme

So I am watching the interview with David Simon about Treme. And watching the bit with John Goodman. Listening to him saying Ashley's words.

And all I can think of is How fucked up this is. Thinking how much insecure Ash was, how he thought nobody took him seriously. Always doubting himself. Always trying to be better, smarter, more informed. Always thinking that his work does not really mean much to anybody.

And now he is a character in a movie! Movie by David Simon whom he admired tremendously.
Now the whole US will finally hear him. They will hear what he was saying 4 years ago. His work will finally have a meaning. To hundreds, maybe thousands.

And how fucked up is it that this happened after his death. I don't know what he would do if he saw this. Being portrait by John Goodman. Him, a poor boy from Pensacola. A son of a used-cars salesman. I wonder if he would finally believe that he meant a lot to a lot of people. That he changed this world without knowing it.